#10 Kindred Notes
Some of the words that have come up in my journal are grateful, hold myself, caring, fixing and walk through this life.
Welcome back to Kindred Notes, where I share bits I have written in my journal, especially words that bring me solace and understanding.
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After meditating on whatI want to be and what to do, I need to start by practicing being human, with the realistic values and capabilities I have to offer. I remembered that on January 3rd, 2023, I said out loud ‘I feel really stressed and overwhelmed’. I had headaches, I was exhausted and anxious. I am glad of where I am today, how I am thinking today, how I feel today. I am grateful. I am whole and at ease.
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I have to be kind and warm towards myself, especially when I am with others. Only I can hold myself in the hand in those situations. I have to find out how I can be with others without depleating my batteries. To discorver this, I am taking myself on a date, to find exactly what makes you feel happy, all the way to your stomach and the tips of fingers. Picking a day, and enjoying it. To hold space for myself.
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I am gently finding the balance between the caring for myself, caring for myself, and care from others. I have to imagine it’s a three legged stool, and that it has to be balanced.
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I found that what I thought was broken, really wasn’t. I thought it needed fixing, but really they just needed space and boundaries.
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Today is one of those days, where I am saying to myself ‘I know I can walk through this life with who I am’ and I can feel my body and mind starting to believe it.
How do you notice the balance between caring for yourself, caring for others, and the care you get from others?
The three legged stool concept speaks to the part of me that struggles to ask for help. I’m getting better at finding the balance between caring for myself and caring for others but I’m not always so good at asking for what I need 🙃💛